I feel a bit green today, no, not something I ate, more as in Kermit the frog 'it's not EASY being green'). The Universe is doing its job of tossing me 'washing machine-like,' back and forth with my convictions and with humbling lessons begging me to take notice! Being human can be laughable and I [...]
I recently stumbled upon the eulogy I wrote for my father, Bob Banta, in 2007. I feel so fortunate to FEEL the presence, the essence and light of my father within myself as I write and when I choose and move throughout my day. We are the sum of our many parts, and a most [...]
I love to laugh. My mother and I could make each other laugh as big as anyone! She was just FUNNY. Her world view, despite a tremendous amount of adversity, was one where her glass was infinitely full, until it wasn't and then she left the planet. I hope to leave as swiftly if my [...]
I’m the first one to admit, I’m a flawed human being. With the passing of years, I know inside myself I am a good, loving and well meaning individual. I don’t dwell on the negative, though when I have a learning curve, I address it my way and in my time. This makes me not [...]
Sitting high above the clouds on an immense plane headed far east to Shanghai, realizing the difficulty of spending 14 hour enroute with no technical devices to contact my work or friends, I twitch and turn with issues heavy on my mind. With the weight of several life changing events on my soul, I consider [...]
Let’s face it, relationships are where we learn the MOST about ourselves. My mother shared a four word phrase with me at a young age. ‘You might be right,’ has served me for decades. Having completed my 362 mile cycling trek from Pittsburgh to Washington D. C., I came away with more than stronger muscles [...]
It bares...bears....beeeairs...... repeating.... 'The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders [...]
I try not to judge though I have my preconceptions and certainly prejudices. Or, is it preferences? My mother was the absolute LEAST judgmental person I've yet to meet. She could poke fun at herself though ALWAYS found something to praise in EVERYONE. And, when I had a crisis to face in my life....life IS [...]
I am frustrated in this moment. I don't like the feeling of disconnect when I am working in earnest to share a perspective, create a solution when asked, or have a moment of rest......and I am tired. The lists travel into my future like adding machine read outs....one into the next, into the next until [...]
I am most definitely aware of my deficiencies. I am also becoming more aware of where I am not so deficient, expecting myself to be good at it all less and less. Oooooh, but I'm a task master to my very own soul. Oh Popeye....he am what I am what you are. I'm over half [...]