One drip of consciousness into the next....our slow awakenings. Mine come slowly and then periodically, in solid and sudden bursts. BOOM! We see. We hear. We know. We know, on NO uncertain terms we see ourselves, our path anew. And the awkwardness of ambivalence and compromise leaves. The choice to love oneself becomes stronger than [...]
I hadn't put it together until just this evening, but my father, Bob Banta, (who dubbed me Barbara Suzanne Banta) was a BB as well. Happy Birthday to my father, Bob Banta. He died some time ago and honestly, I feel a greater bond with him since his death than perhaps when he was of [...]
A major 'aha'....(they're coming like popcorn kernels these days) hit me like a small stone on the head this morning. I've felt changes brewing within a lot over the last weeks and months....(I've had a direction in mind for quite some time)...but of late, I'm being 'popped' around quite a bit and that's fine...I can [...]
How would you conduct your life? We've all considered this, or pondered the thought at least momentarily. I would fret so much less over the seeming big things which distract me, make me sad, frightened or upset. I'd say 'what the hell'. Honestly, 'what the hell'. Who really cares, I'm gonna die soon anyhow. How [...]
I was reminded as I sat quietly this early morning....a full day ahead of me of relative freedom.... Desiderata Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; [...]
I'm enamored (is that the correct word this morning) with the process of being human on this planet. Enamored isn't the best word, but it'll have to do for the moment. I felt a net lift from my myopic view of the world this week. Some things became crystal clear. And if not CRYSTAL clear, [...]
For a woman who works the hours I do...certainly of late, I am reminded this early Sunday evening the necessity for play...with people we love, who 'get' parts of who we are. My friend Janice is one of those friends who makes me feel prettier, smarter, FUNNIER, more generous, inventive and generally a [...]
“Wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving.” Kahil Gibran He had it right. Simple, true. I will remember that as I face the 'entitled' this day, the ones who push beyond fair measure. I will remember instead to lovingly stand my ground, say no where it is [...]
I have just a moment this evening as I've been on a tear....probably not uncharacteristic, but a tear for sure. When I see what needs to be done...with utter clarity, damn if I'm not unstoppable. I feel a bit like a canon in those moments...once shot from my chambers I'm unstoppable. My team knows this, [...]
It's a choice....falling in love. A choice. We choose. There has been a lot of underground movement occurring in my world of late...taking me away a bit from my writing, from the me I thought I was to whoever it is I am becoming. I'm 'in love' with arriving to new and better places....of consciousness, [...]